DISCUSSING WHAT HAPPENED

Um, I don't know. Um, the Jeff thing— yeah, the Jeff thing is, is the fucking worst because before I even say anything, um Like, that is— that day, uh, is like the worst, the worst thing that's ever happened to me. And I wish I could fucking— I would fucking do anything to take that day back. Um, my hand is shaking. Um, like, yeah, I mean, anything. Like, I'm being deadass. Like, I wish it was me up there. I wish whatever. Like, it's like It's the most unfortunate thing ever. And I think— and, and, and it's a shitty— it's an accident. That's what it was. It's an accident. Like, I also want to make that clear. I don't know if people think that— that there's, there's never a world where I would ever want that to happen to a person. There was never— I was never up there like driving the thing wanting to hurt him or whatever it was. Like, that was never the thing. Um, and I think recently— so Jeff's gone angry recently with me. And, um, and I don't know if this is— there's a lot of layers to it, I feel like. And, and you can correct me if I'm wrong, but I think, I think one of the main reasons, um, Jeff is bummed with me right now is, um, because he saw me do, uh, he saw me do an interview where I said something that I promised him I'd keep between us. Um, and that's something he told you? Um, yeah, and I figured that that's what it was, and then you reaffirmed it when you told me that, uh, he's, he's pissed that I broke a promise. Um, this is so hard to talk about because like I don't want to fucking sound— yeah, okay, so it was, it was the day of whatever it was.