DISCUSSING WHAT HAPPENED

But yeah, I've been going— the last 2 years of my life have been like the worst years of my life. And, um, uh, yeah, it's been like really, really bad. And, and I think it's so interesting because I'll see comments on like my new vlogs and everyone would be like— I think we cut this, I mentioned this in the last podcast, but I think we cut it out— and I'll read comments and everyone would be like, this is the happiest I've ever seen him. Yes, he's finally like whatever hit his stride. And it's like It couldn't be further from the truth. Like, I've— I've— I didn't even know, like, I could feel something like this. It's pretty dark and it's pretty unfortunate, but I'm figuring it out. And I don't know. And I think— and the thing that's keeping me going is like, I know whatever a person's going through, like, it's going to be okay at the end of it because, like, you know, like, like when you see, like, celebrities or like any prominent person be interviewed, or like anybody interviewed in general, it's like, what would you tell yourself when you were younger? And like 70% of the answers are like, it's going to be okay. You know what I mean? So like, yeah, if I was to take—