DISCUSSING WHAT HAPPENED

Not saying there was ever a moment where like I was going to abandon anybody and be like, peace, like hanging out with whatever. But, but just to, just to wrap things up for this really bizarre podcast, I know things are going to be clipped from here and maybe taken out of context or taken with context and people react in different ways. Um, but I, I just want to be really clear that, that, um, that— I mean, I, I've said it, but I just want to be really quick. I just want to be really clear that, uh, that there are a lot of things that I could have done differently. There's, you know, from before the accident to after the accident to nothing to do with the accident, there's a lot of things that I could have done differently in my life. And like, and, and I'm sorry. And you know, I promised this before and I've said it in private and I've— and I'll say it again, like, I'm, I'm making those changes and I'm open to those changes. And like, I read every comment unfortunately that I see, so like, I, I do take everything into consideration and I'm learning. And then, and then I'm not And I don't do this for any other reason than, than to spread joy on people's faces and to like make people laugh. Like genuinely don't do this for any other reason. Um, um, and, and I want to keep doing that and it, and it's been difficult to do without sharing this side or part of me, um, because I feel like I've kind of been like leaving all my emotions in here and like not giving you guys the full scoop of everything and I don't know. I also want to be clear that I'm not— this, this video isn't a video where I'm pointing fingers at people or anything. This was just kind of, kind of just like, like how I would talk to a therapist, like kind of just like a way of like just getting stuff off my chest. In a way that like, I want to like grow from this, move on from this, be better from this, and be honest about this, um, just so I can move forward accordingly. Like, I feel like if I don't get this out or don't get this off my chest, like, I genuinely am like stunting my own growth, like, in my character. Like, I feel like I'm just like in this box unless I'm really sharing my experiences and what I'm feeling. So that was the purpose of this, and, um, no other purpose. And I'll— and I never want to be the one that like makes a video about anyone that goes like, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you. Yeah, never, never ever want to do that.