DISCUSSING WHAT HAPPENED

And I think it came at the wrong time. And then— and it's tough with, like— and it's tough. And then the doc got into things like— his doc got into things like how, like, I'm not there for him, like we don't talk enough. And, and a lot of that was true. Like, I've never had a harder time communicating with a person than I have with him during this. Um, and, and, you know, it's for multiple reasons. It's for me fucking just being bad at that shit and not knowing how to handle like such a serious situation. Um, and I also didn't know if he needed space. Like, every time I would talk to him Jeff is like a guy who like is very tough when you're to his face and it's like, I don't need this, I don't need you doing this, like I'm good, I'm strong. But then when you create that distance, it's like, what the fuck? Yeah, he's not fucking— now not talking to me. And then like when my other friends would go talk to him, he'd tell him, he's like, if I ever see Dave, I'm gonna fucking beat his ass, right? So it's like— and that happened multiple times. From multiple different friends where he would like complain about— so like, I wouldn't know, like, do you want to see me more so you can beat my ass? Like, I don't know. I don't know. I don't know how to go about that in a way where it's not hurting him more seeing me. Like, because like that, that accident is so bad where like, I would understand if he wouldn't want to see me because I'm associated with like, yeah, such a shit fucking time. Um, and, and, and back to And back to the, the secret that he wanted me to keep, um, I, I was all hands on deck for that, but I, I feel like I can take, you know, 80% of the responsibility, 90%, 100% of the responsibility for the accident, whatever he needs me to do. But that, you know, then when it gets to the point where it started to feel like I was taking 150% of the responsibility, I started to see things like like David fucking Force's friend up there, like all this kind of stuff. Like, that was just fucking insane. And it like felt like people thought I like literally sent him up there just so he can fucking swing off this thing, right? Like, that was not the case. And like, the more and more that happened, the more I was like, what is going on? Like, this is not what happened. It was— it was a combined decision we made and it was a complete accident. And I'm so fucking sorry that accident happened. But it did, and there's, there's no going back from that. Like, there's nothing we can do. Um, and, and yeah, I wish it was more like that. And then when it started to be like more 150% on me, it— I, I started to get— I don't know, I guess like it just freaked me out more. I was just like, I don't know, I don't know what's going on, I don't know. Um, and then in terms of his like medical payments, um So far we've paid, um, I think I, I just had accounting check and it was like $78,000 of surgery. And I don't know what that equates to, I don't know what that is, but I don't love the fact that he's going around saying I don't pay for surgeries. Like, that fucking hurts. Like, I want to help him, I really truly do. And like, he still has my word, like I told him that I'd pay for surgeries. He can still— and, and the reason we haven't been paying for a surgery. I don't know if it's his assistant's fault or, or, or Jeff just told him to back off from us, but like, I don't handle that stuff more. I'll just give approval to, to spend that, whatever. But like, Natalie has asked multiple times, like, loop us into all these surgeries, and we're just not getting looped into anything. And then, and then we're blindsided when he goes to another surgery, and then he'll like come out and be like— like his most recent surgery I didn't know that he had a surgery until he unfollowed me on Instagram. And that's because, you know, it's a two-way street. We can be— we can be like, when's your next surgery? But also, we're not— no one's looping us into what we need to be paying for. And to this day, like, I'm still keeping my word. Like, I want him to send me whatever he needs me to pay for. Like, I will pay for it. But it's just not fair to say that we haven't been paying for it because we have paid literally every single bill that has ever been paid. Yeah, every bill. And we'll— as long as he needs it. It. Um, I don't know.